Fear is a big part of
life. I don’t think anyone goes through life without having fears or having
them affect our choices in some way, shape, or form.
A lot of times, I think our fears are relationship-based.
They derive their power from some of our past experiences. We are afraid of
rejection, because we’ve experienced the embarrassment of rejection. We are afraid we aren’t good enough,
because somewhere, at some point, we have been made to feel that we are
“lacking,” and we are afraid of loneliness, because we know the pain of being
alone.
There are so many more fears you can add to the list.
We are afraid. And we are afraid of doing something that
makes us afraid!
It’s crazy.
I’ve felt fear in all of my limbs. At once. Never a good feeling. And I’ve seen how the power over
me, was in the fear itself. It usually is never in the actual thing, I think
I’m fearing. No. It’s in the fear that comes BEFORE the thing.
The fear is oftentimes, worse, than what I’m fearing. And
it’s worse, because I’m afraid to fall apart. I’m afraid to break. I’m afraid I won’t be able to handle
whatever it is.
Do you resonate with where I’m coming from?
The thing is…. I may not like whatever it is that I have to
go through. I may not enjoy it. It may
hurt. But allowing myself to be broken over it - it brings me freedom,
instead of bondage.
You see, sometimes
what we ask God NOT to give us; is the very thing we need the most. It’s the thing we need, to be sifted,
to grow, to improve, and to deepen. We may not want it – but we need it in our
lives, somehow, somewhere.
Don’t be afraid to
break. Don’t let fear hold you
captive. Breaking may be the only thing that allows you to move forward. To
heal. To gain strength and courage.
To become truly whole.
Fear is powerful – but God is MORE powerful. Let Him give you
the strength you need to enter into what fears you the most right now. Walk
into it, with Him at your side.
And find the freedom you crave.
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