Overwhelmed

There are moments lately where I am just so overwhelmed.  I feel so blessed and so thankful to be where I currently am.

I am seeing God’s hand working. I knew it was working when I knelt on my knees in prayer so many times before, but now, now I’m seeing the results of those prayers. It’s not as if I didn’t believe at the time I prayed them, that they’d never come true – I just felt like the reality of those answers was so, so far away.

Do you know what it’s like to feel overwhelmed? To feel such love for your Savior and such love FROM your Savior that tears come to your heart, your eyes, and your throat?

My God is SO great.

For so many years, I felt like I was in a battle. A struggle. A spiritual one and a physical one. There were times where I felt like life would always be that way. And now, now I sit in the blessings. The clouds have blown away and the sun has come out.

It feels so good. And I am so humbled.

I don’t want to forget. I don’t want to forget what it feels like to have such grace and mercy bestowed on me. I don’t want to forget how it feels to not be crawling to God in despair and yet still feel like I’m so close to Him.

Good times often cause us to forget our need for God. They often pave the way for us to relax and go about what WE want out of life. It is usually in the struggle that we claw and cling to our God and need Him so desperately.  But to reside in the blessing and still feel like you need Him? A gift.

God does things sometimes just because He can. He is always faithful. Even through our doubts, our lack of patience, our gripes, and our tears – He knows the future and He knows what is best for us.

Oh how great is His love!  Oh how great it is to FEEL His love! To know it’s been there all along even when it felt so far away. To touch it with my heart when my eyes close in deep, complete thankfulness.

May I never, ever forget what it took to get to the blessing. May I never forget in the good times what I learned in the hard. And may the tears never stop coming to my eyes and heart at the knowledge of His deep and complete love for me.

Oh yes. I am overwhelmed.

And it feels so priceless.