Have you ever felt like at any moment you would cry? Like the tears are lodged in your
throat and eyes, ready to pour out at the slightest harsh word or sensitive
commercial thrown before your eyes?
And yet – you’re not sure why.
There is no BIG problem set before you to solve. No crisis
involving your children. No hurt
feelings that need to be resolved.
Just a “blah” feeling accompanied by tears beneath the surface.
When I have these times if I sit and think long enough, I
can usually pinpoint my inner sorrow to some word said carelessly that bothered
me on a deeper level. Or an action done by another that wounded my very
soul. We try to shake it off and
act like it’s “no big deal” but inside – it IS a big deal. It has pricked us. It has made a dent in our heart.
And I can’t help but think that the inner sorrow comes from
wanting more. Wanting better. Wanting
different.
And so we go on with our business and the well of tears
rises within us – refusing to be forgotten. Begging
to be noticed. So it can deal. So it
can heal.
I know that sometimes I just can’t think clearly until I let my inner emotion out. And then it feels so good. So freeing.
I no longer sit in bondage.
Do you feel like you want to cry today? Are you struggling
to know why? Be honest with yourself. It’s okay to admit and recognize that
someone has pricked your heart.
See life for what it is. Allow yourself to see your feelings
for what they are. But then pick yourself up, and smile. Love yourself. Declare
to stand taller and wiser. Peel
off the thorns and let yourself be gentle and vulnerable again. For emotions are nothing to be ashamed
of. They teach us. Guide us. Free us.
Tears may come, but joy too – will rise again.
“Jesus wept.” John
11:35
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